Three years ago and some change..

Makenna 1 day old

Makayla 1 day old

 I still remember the first  day I brought two babies home from the hospital, both weighing under 5 pounds .  It's like an embeddded memory.  I was single then. Yes raising two twins wasn't what I had planned but I knew if god had another path for me, he'd show me the way.  I remember the last day they were in the NICU, I was scared and sad. Really, Two babies my first round!! I was surely blessed but not so sure how I was going to survive the long nights ahead, and all the other fun motherly stuff. That day the NICU nurses wheeled my two bundles down to my car. This was it, I pulled my car up, they helped me put them in and I was off! It was so strange. I cried all way home. tears of joy,and tears of (Im on my own). Just me and my baby girls. I drove like a snall that day too, I was so worried from that point on. I was their mother and I was gonna do everything in my power to protect them:)  The first night home my aunt stayed. Needless to say I did'nt get an ounce of sleep. I was up round the clock,feeding,changing diapers,rocking and playing both roles. It was my choice to do this so I  took responsibility.   They were in and out of the hospital alot when they were little so it took a toll on me. I survived though. I new things would change. When they were about 8 months old, I decided to move in with there dad. It wasn't easy transition,but we both wanted the best for our twins and us. Moving in with him was a great move. I felt like I could actually breath and give the the life they deserved to have. I feel like I missed so much with them, that I 'm now doing for Abigail. I wish I could rewind things, be that awesome little family I have now and bring them home again, but I cant and I would'nt. Things happen for a reason and this makes me love myself and my family that much more. These girls and Will have made me who I am today. Im happy as a clam. I may not be rich,real skinny and have everything I want but I do know one thing. I have the best gift ever. My girls and there dad. It doesn't happen over-night,but im a true believer everything happens for a reason.

There first night home:) (WOW)

Just over a Month old

Nine months and we all became a FAMILY:)